Men can only be equal on the Day we are all Equal,

"the truth is not always Beautiful, nor beautiful Words the truth"

Lao Tzu

“What we do for ourselves dies with us. What we do for others and the world remains and is immortal.”

Albert Pine

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Failing to take a stand

It Is what plagues the Human Race I have never because of The fight I was In merely to survive really seen The problem for what It was, I would go on thinking as most there is nothing I can do about the situation, Never realizing that with any gift given too a man comes with great responsibility, Not to himself, but rather too those that also benefit from that gift. Life itself is a gift but if it is lived in fear or apathy towards what goes on in our world, it is unable to be nurtured, and Others in no way benefit from it.
It is now apparent to me that I spent years wasting my gift, simply because I have been given the Gift of discernment for one, that Is the ability to see things for what they truly are, However if I fail in any way to bring others awareness to it I have failed both the gift and the Giver of it, If I fail to take action against the injustices I see and lend my voice to the eradication of these injustices, I have failed.  I do also realize that it was no way an easy thing to Take a stand and refuse to Rock the Boat or make waves from the shore I have also failed. So I do what I do For a reason, Because I have the ability and Have been given the Gift to do it.
Some believe That I actually find great Joy in it, and nothing could be farther from the truth in reality, I do keep up a good front for others But the fact remains that I do not enjoy the attacks I receive because of it,The threats the Love and friendships I lose because of it and the watching as others whom I know to know the truth shrink from me because of their fear to take a stand, or to become involved in ways that could effect change, I Until recently was homeless for more years than I care to remember, when You are fifty years old and your greatest claim to life is that you managed to survive for 48% of your life such as it was on the streets you in no way find great solace in it.
The Only peace about My Life I have Is the peace that comes from being a Child of God, And In no way am I tied to the woe’s and worries of this world they to shall pass into nothingness and effect in no way The eternity that I have as a Child Of Promise.
I pray for those who are less fortunate than Me in every way. I know first hand the struggles the depression and the loss of hope that comes from living on the streets it is something I know Oh to well. And those that face it daily are my greatest concern. I truly love many that who do not live as they do the people who live lives that are full of blessings missed. My biggest critics.
I understand why it is this way, It is because people do not wish too think or talk about things that might make them Have to take Great risk, having a desire to help those effected by injustice they are only willing to take an acceptable amount of Risk. One that appears to be risk but truly risk only that which does in no way effect the level of comfort which the have in their lives and when made uncomfortable by the things I say in truth they feel it necessary to attack My faith or My motivation, or My mental state or any other Number of things. When The truth is I know all there is to Know about Me I know that I can not be called a Model citizen or a productive member of society, I am however a man Of Unyielding faith in God and Not my fellow Man, I Have the Moral integrity to cry our against injustice and in so doing am accused of being jealous of others, or Being a terrorist. or a coward, and know this every injustice or person living in the shadow of the harbingers Of injustice that I have ever said anything about I have said openly and shirk not from the responsibility of that which I say and do. If I have something to say about injustice and tyranny and oppression I Simply say it.
I don’t ask people to like it I do not ask for others to agree with it, But for it to be discounted as Lies and propaganda is only, Because others say it is so does not make it so the truth is truth weather people wish to give it heed or Not.
So I can tell you I am inside and I am working now, that I can further this my very own voice not one that some man or organization has given Me. simply to have a greater effect, In stopping the injustices the thievery and exploitation of a people who live lives that are full already with. I had prayed After almost a year of telling everyone out there in this fight against homelessness, the truth that The reason nothing is being done is because Your tax dollars and private sector donations are going into the pockets of a system of Help which has fleeced the American populace at large for entirely too long.
Anyone failing to take a stand only contributes to the death’s of Men women and children who suffer at their hand, while they Appear to have the Homeless people’s best interest at Heart with their little catchy slogans and broken programs of promise, They do not care about anything but continued funding or they could have done something with the last 15-20 years of Public funding they received.  other than coming up with a new slogan every couple of years and this simply is the truth.
As Heard from me The voice which is Mine a gift from God, and not Man, I tell you all don’t fail to take a stand. 

Monday, August 29, 2011

Into obscurity, I refuse To Go

I have often wondered are people overwhelmed in their effort to Help the Homeless is it something that they start out in with the best intentions and upright moral compassing and then life takes on different meaning or direction I meet year after year people whom I believe to Have the interest and the heart for it,, and am year after year left out in the cold as if by some great design.
I do know that It is the God of wonders that watches over Us the outcast and the Homeless of society because On our fellow man We can Place No hope of our meaning and direction being certain. In all But His Memory Do we Find ourselves to have soon faded into the obscurity that was once A life.

I had written this sometime Back and it was in the heartbreak that Overcame Me as I watched time after time on My social network and many pages as I was befriended by people who were out and about doing for the homeless what I had from the inability of circumstance the Power too do, men who were out raising awareness and interacting with the homeless in their communities, Living in their cars or vans or sleeping rough as people like to call it. And doing it For Me not out of circumstance but a desire to make it known I was Here.  Often I publicly questioned these Men as to both Motive and endurance and was often scorned or ridiculed for My abrasive nature in dealing with Men whom I seen as trying to further their cause as in compare to the real problem at hand, which is the real faces and lives that live in this realm of existence. and when writing this I Left messages on the accounts of these Men who brought awareness to Me and the Men, women and children like me, I wonder  now where have you gone? I am posting this to those whom are still hanging in there, those who refuse to give Up and Hope to Make a change.
Know That to me you and that which you do is dear too my heart and I uphold you in Prayer, and I ask you Look back at those who have come and Gone as I have witnessed to you Me watching it for over 2 decades happening, and ask yourself does this Man who indeed said this was and would be the case does not have some far deeper understanding than He has been given credit?  If you look for those I am talking about which Many of you have interacted those Idle accounts proclaiming to be in this Battle the answer too you will become clear and to this lone obscure voice who is not fading away but still crying out you must at some point listen too. Because I In no way will be giving up anytime soon. but will be here on the watchtower proclaiming truth too all who will listen.

Saturday, August 27, 2011

The Homeless Solution, In A Nutshell!

Most people think Me to be absolutely Mad when I tell them I have the answer to Homelessness that is far reaching and will solve the problem not just here in America but globally. An answer that reaches across oceans across cultures and across ethnic and racial and religious lines on every continent.
The simplicity of it and the absurdity of it is too much for some people while others are often staggered by It, yet refuse to believe it could possibly work. Let me begin by saying we live in a world where globally there are akin to 9.5% of the worlds population are homeless, or as often said In a transient state, by definition I do not like the very word transient as it is to mean something temporary and not belonging in permanence. and should never be applied to a Human being. And is only applied to Humans in the view that we wish they would just go away or couldn’t and shouldn’t they be somewhere else. Just Not in my back yard.
People Good people of every race religion and creed on this planet often even indwell there children with these very principles, Don’t look at them Dear if they see you looking at them they are going to want something. Those people are not like us, those people are just dirty and filthy and don’t care about nothing, Those people are drunks and drug addicts. Don’t give them money their Just going to waste It. all’s we can do is feed them and hope for the best. Their governments aren’t doing anything What can we possibly do? discounting the very life led by Us that begins everyday simply put in survival mode where on must spend the day at the mercy of life itself and the Mad fight to simply find food protection from the elements and those in society who pray upon the weak because those sworn to protect them view them as unworthy of their protection and the fight for survival is merely something that others do not understand.unless they themselves are faced with it.
This is the very core of why the problem continues, it is because we don’t view it as our problem, and as part of this grand family of Humans each unique in their own way everyone’s struggle is our struggle and our failure to recognize it is the problem. that we lean towards our governments and our leaders being the only ones having the answers and the ability to fix our problems, and not seeing their inaction and there lack of compassion and moral capacity to act for the furtherance of all of mankind, is not their but our failure.
The Homeless solution therefore in my opinion is simple and not complex at all, it is one that starts with each and everyone of us believing we can have change and effect on the lives of others. we however must start with that which is closest to us before we can reach across the country or around the globe and have any effect, in your own community is where you must start, and start we must. not waiting for someone else to miraculously come up with a solution.
Because I am again going too here and now give you that solution, one Homeless Life Man woman or Child is where we all must start, and damned be the funding or the grant or the program which we need it is not coming and it is already failing somewhere. but that one person you  and you alone can reach out to and you can change and have effect. bring them that one into your life, make them a part of you and who you are be a friend put them in your spare room in a tent in your back yard build a room at your church make them a part of what makes you the caring compassionate person you are, share your blessing with them and Make them feel the love that has kept you grounded and a part of life, make them feel like a part of the Human race again and you will solve this problem. Do not dictate to them the changes they must make but live in love and watch them desire the changes that are possible. In America we have more church’s than homeless people and this is our failure to see the struggles of others as our own, the cost of the remodel on our sanctuary to accommodate the 100 new parishioners we have far outweigh the man sleeping under the bridge down the block. and this is why the problem persist.
It is what I have given the only solution I believe will solve the problem, because it is the one thing that has not been tried, it has no program guidelines and it is something everyone is capable of , because I know everyone is capable of this Kind of Love. which is what every man woman and child effected by any level of poverty need it desire it and will go to great length’s to obtain it. so while people will never be mandated, regulated, or forced off the streets, it is possible to Love them Off Of the streets, I know because it is Happening to Me.  

Thursday, August 25, 2011


a place between lightnings flash and the sound of thunder
Silence a place between chaos and Order
somewhere where you yourself might be found
silence  something not found if sought
illusive ever fleeting
gone in the moment of finding
never there always present
a gift withheld gone before given silence
not having a place yet possessing all places
missed yet always seen silence
desired wanted needed often
touching all things with no trace bound by nothing
silence in love in hate in all things tangible
yet in nothing forever seeking more silence
silence there for the asking
once only heard silence
a song of men and angels silence
what was made for you
have you listened did you hear silence
  the voice of God there hidden and heard.

joseph2dogs 2004
from  born in darkness 

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Altruistic Thought,The Terrorist Diaries Vol:2

It is something that I think we must all be indwelled with not only as A thought but as a way of Life in order for our actions to have any effect, on the lives of others something I also believe that is often discarded by those most in need of it. In order too help others, it is most often said we must first help ourselves, this does Not blend well with altruism, the  unselfish regard for or devotion to the welfare of others. It is evident most pervasively in Men who for some reason or another feel it necessary to claim divine ordinance to their sacrifice To lay claim to Look at Oh all these good works I have done, And That does in no way lend itself to the true altruism that I speak of.
We as a human race, have lost our way, and are no longer indwelled with the spirit of it, nothing gets done in this world unless there is something in it for the doer’s. And too continue on in this manner discounts the need of those who for some reason are unable or unwilling to help themselves. I myself have often been guilty of just such thought, what will I gain and how will it better My life, only when I release this thinking am I able to move forward, and have effect. and this is where I have been brought too in my walk, there is nothing in what I am doing that in anyway is going to benefit me. I do not care in anyway if what I say or do brings change to my life because The God I serve does that daily. what I most hope to accomplish in all of my doing, is too help others not to suffer the indignities I have suffered. I also Am aware that with my faith it is become a simple thing, Because It is God alone that has given relief to my suffering and is able too do the same for others. And not I.
We can have effect on the lives of others, A much greater impact can we have on others lives than on our own, but only if we do it together and with no forethought to what gain or betterment we might have for it. our biggest offense is knowing the truth of oppression of others yet continuing in our unyielding silence. too say I see but I can say nothing because Of conflict which is faced when I do, Is failure. To keep our head in the sand is in it’s very essence sacrificing others rather than ourselves. In a Perfect world one would not need to sacrifice himself , but as we are not there yet in this perfect world, it is something that must be done.
Because, others suffer in our silence, I would much rather be ostracized, outcast, and shunned than to have too look at myself in the mirror and see a man whom contributed too the suffering of others by His inaction, and unwillingness to say anything. I do not believe that others are bound by my belief or by my values, I do however believe as the Human race we have obligation too others wellbeing as we suffer at the suffrage of others weather we see it or not.
So too be deemed a terrorist or detrimental to any cause that is by it’s very nature is contributing to the oppression and exploitation of others I freely except it, Because I need to be able to look in the mirror and see a Man who did His very Best to stop it. My only question to anyone would be, when you Look what is it that you see in the mirror ?  It is something every man and woman needs ask themselves.  Not for, Themselves but for the sake of others. This is what I personally believe to be living a life of altruism and effectual for others. because in this thought there is no room for discounting what is best for all.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Invisible Again The Terrorist Diaries Volume: 1

I thought when I got on the internet and started writing I was going to find people who believed as I did that the world of which I wrote was indwelled with injustice and that if I only pointed it out and spoke in truth’s all would go well and for the most part It has I met many knew and interesting people many of which have become friends that I know I will have for Life. almost everyone I met through social media were encouraging and would both in private and openly tell me I admire what your doing your courage and you fortitude too say what you believe, at some point that changed because the more I dug into the truth and continued to put into print the injustices and the exploitation that the world which I knew, The more distant some people who I had most tried to reach those who I believed could most effect change because of there popularity and there claim to be giving a voice to men like me became. so I ask myself why?  I had brought to their attention that some of those that they claimed to be helping us homeless people were not what they were cracked up to be, and that they really didn’t have the best interest of the people from my walk of life at heart, that they where the very ones I wrote about the profiteers of the less fortunate.
I also inquired of them out of this confusion as to the claim of me being a person that they were helping, too give unto me a voice so that I would no longer be one of these invisible people, and they said to me then, you have a voice and we need to all work together, I was at that time really confused because I thought that was what I was doing I thought that together we could effect change if we just stood on the truth. Little did I know at that time that I was viewed as a decenter to the cause, what I was truly unaware of  is that the claim to help the homeless have a voice was merely an affront. I truly believed that maybe they didn’t really understand that these people were in everyway taking advantage of the disadvantaged. and In their heart they thought that these people were helping,
I was never one to mince words I always have said what I thought if it was grounded in truth It would all be ok so I continued to cry out about these injustices and continued to expose these people for what they were, until one day well into the rainy season I realized that this person actually wasn’t giving me a voice and in no way could because they were under the employ of the very people I was trying to stop from being the harbingers of injustice, At that time I became depressed and disheartened with the whole situation simply because I felt like if this person doesn’t give me a voice nobody will, boy how wrong was I because I also noticed that others were aware of what was going on and were working outside of this system and were trying to have a real and lasting impact on peoples lives independent of the system, and it is working while doing little things they do great things because they do it out of the necessity of someone must do something. and something is what we must do.
People do hear many remain silent and know that what I say is truth that these people who profit from this the misfortune of others need to be stopped, and they go on serving others in the hope that they will have effect they go on because they are encouraged by those who also know that they can and do have effect, they impact people lives daily in ways more dear to men than all the finest overpriced draining projects that are designed to help only a few and they believe that we can help one and all. They do because they believe in what they are doing they do it without the support or the reliance of Big money as the entrenched organizations they do it with the day to day help of people who truly see that the alternative is what does not now or at times past help it only lends to keeping the only system  we have available outside of them drained and ineffectual. they do because of a true care and compassion. They do It because they don’t just talk about it they Live The Love.
In all of My voice I have done my best to make it known that what we are presented with as a solution is the most cost ineffective failed social experiment in the History of this country, it has In the last almost  2 decades drained the money allocated, to fix this homeless problem from every source from which the money came from wasted federal Housing grants to Community  Developmental block Grants,  and social Development Grants , and The Biggest Private sector Donations of Both Time and Finance. and because of it’s ineffectiveness the Latter has began to dry Up people are no longer willing to support after decades a system that doesn’t work. Praise God Because there are people that have true effect that could use their help More.
At what cost to the People we are trying to Help, did this Social experiment have.
  On average a homeless person’s life is 36% shorter than a housed person’s life.
It is estimated By the National coalition of homelessness between 1990 and 2010 approximately 956  homeless people annually die in America approximately 3 people a day  the highest # being in the greater Los Angeles Metropolitan district reaching 186 people annually or approximately 9 percent of all homeless death’s nationwide.
And because I desire this to stop and I desire people who for the past 2 decades have allowed it by their backroom deals and absorption of public funds allocated to stop it
I am Now invisible Again And deemed a terrorist by the greatest voice they have ever had  and their newest social Media Guru.Thank You Oh workers of iniquity.

Monday, August 22, 2011

Homeless are exploited Or Don't You Get It.

I Honestly wrote that Last Post Both believing and Hoping that Maybe as I often Do that someone would actually hear what I was Saying while you read and you listened you did not hear. people became embroiled in back and forth battle of what are you doing and a what they are doing argument and This is the problem at it’s very root.
Let Me first say In this Post, Many have said In their writings homelessness is a cause it is an industry and a career. This view itself is the root cause of why nothing is being done, in the opinion of the people who for years have been entrenched in this system, they believe that this is what it is a cause, and not a Human right.
They also believe That it is for them and their organizations to decide what is the best way to help the homeless population of this country at Large never taking into account the needs or desire of the individual experiencing it.
With temporary shelters that are subsidized by community development block grants and private sector donations one must truly understand, they are run at great expense and at a cost overrun that reaches millions of dollars annually. they are by there very nature both  inefficient and ineffective they are a temporary fix to a ongoing problem and have absorbed Most of the public money given too fix the problem.
Then there are Help organizations themselves Common Grounds, Pathways to Housing, Path, Path Achieve, NAEH. Project Restart, 100k homes, Salvation Army, Union Gospel Missions To Name a few In 1994 it was Thought and put into practice the 10 yr. plan to end homelessness and It was conceived that communities, could end homelessness in the 10yr period following, it was However a failure it was touted as A great success in the new york and it was said to get the people off of the streets in Manhattan at the reconstruction and renovation of the prince Rupert Motel. and the cost of 200million dollars Approx.. The trouble and the reality is both that it is claimed and I Quote
“  Our ground-breaking Street to Home program reduced street homelessness by 87% in the 20-block Times Square neighborhood, and by 43% in the surrounding 230 blocks of West Midtown. Spearheading a citywide strategy, Common Ground is now responsible for securing homes for people living on the streets in all of Brooklyn, Queens, and midtown Manhattan.”
When the reality was  after the building of this fine Housing complex, “The Prince George provides permanent, affordable housing for 416 low-income and formerly homeless adults and persons living with HIV/AIDS. Built in 1904, the residence was once one of New York City’s premier hotels; after many years of decline, it was rehabilitated by Common Ground and reopened in 1999. The Prince George is now listed on the National Register of Historic Places.” And this for the over 4000 homeless individuals living in lower Manhattan. I ask where did the other 3500 + plus individuals go. They where push out of times Square and the surrounding area’s to other Borough's  and then Common Grounds Was Placed in Charge of Fixing the problems there also.
Now The problem I have always had with this is the politics of provision, the providers and the development committee’s and the construction companies themselves have all since the inception of this what we call supportive housing plan, have in one way or another been tied to The common grounds Board of directors, Housing and Urban development, and have both given and received No bid contracts for the renovation or construction of every project that has been conceived since this time, allowing for cost inafective  projects to continue to this day We the american people are being Raped, and you want me to remain silent Because all these programs that are helping Us the homeless have stemmed from Common grounds, which then founded Pathways To housing, Which then founded Path Which then founded Pathways Which then Founded Path to achieve Which then Founded 100k homes Does anyone see a cycle Here. Because I am An uneducated homeless Man and I just one Day after looking at all these board members with their Florida key Island Getaways And there homes in the Hamptons And Beverly hill’s and I just got it. So don’t say to Me I am doing damage to these peoples Cause Because I don’t give a damn about these people or their cause it’s the homeless I care about.and If your homeless and you think I am doing damage to the cause then they have in someway brain washed your ass because you are in the less than 19% that By their own admission fit the vulnerability index and you should be the first to wake Up, Because you are Either  an Idiot or so devoid of hope in helping yourself, Or unable too  you really think they Care. And while Yes Many people who work for them never look at the top down politics as they should and continue to allow it by their ignorance and I do not lay the blame at their feet other than once they become aware to continue on just for a paycheck is reprehensible. on that point I do Digress.   However  Becky Kannis Like Rosanne Hagerty, and there mouth piece Mark Horvath, and all his Little Kool-aid drinkers, Can All Kiss My Ass I will Not Be Silenced.

Friday, August 19, 2011

If you weren't Pissed at me before Read This!

I do not understand Because of someone else’s refusal, to see the truth that is before them that Men can be belittled berated or even made fun of and said to have mental problems, especially by some people who are by either their own ignorance or their own selfish desire to be helped, allow themselves to continue to be exploited, I do however not fault someone who’s desire to see justice for themselves lives in their unwilling ignorance by not looking at what is happening all around them.
So Be it, That is truly Not why I began this post I began it because Homeless people are daily exploited by Homeless help agencies and Men and women who claim to be homeless advocate’s  I will say it again And people should almost at some point listen, I am and for sometime been what I would consider to be the worlds foremost expert on homelessness, and the exploitation of this sub sect of society I lived Homelessness for almost 24yrs, until this week! I have for sometime refused service from homeless providers even after they themselves prequalify me on the premise that I am mentally unstable IE A Nut. Why because I refuse their services And I scream from the mountain top stop exploiting these My people. And This is what the Post is about I am Just getting started I suffered in silence long enough no homeless help Organization in this country can say I took advantage of their system and am just Hurt or Bitter because the shelter system didn’t work for Me because I didn’t Lend to it the opportunity too, I laid under your bridges and in your Abandoned warehouses and anywhere I could stay out of the elements as men who believed this system, Laid in it’s arms with hope until they had no more hope left and then where cast out of the system and left to parish in most cases cold tired Hungry and alone. victims by every definition of the word, of the plan to end homelessness. The problem with this plan is it has never worked and was not ever designed to because it was structured then and is structured now, as a plan too help only those most desperately in need of the Help. keeping a never ending supply of those becoming more desperate and in need with every day.
So In truth We can stand and say Lets Don’t talk about the Money It is spreading Vitriol It is Unnecessary, It is meaningless, It has nothing to do with our efforts, what ever ones reason to avoid the truth, we can make excuse, however it is happening the organizations most likely to receive Both funding and praise are the ones who have received them for years, they are the ones who can most afford to buy a PR campaign and employ Marketers Like Mark Horvath, and a Team of Grant writers, and legal minds who make more annually than the organization spends to House any homeless individual.
So a lot of people would say to me I am a harsh critic of this PR campaign, By @hardlynormal Mark Horvath, who would like me and others to believe, His whole life has been sacrificed to help homeless people, and He now lives in His van traveling around the country in sacrifice giving all he has, the ones who believe this are ostrich's you truly have your head in the sand , this man is given a car by a sponsor is given a expense account that stems from a grant to help homeless people. Is on the payroll of a nonprofit Org, gives away socks paid for by a sponsor saying it is a great thing, when without the sponsorship of socks, months ago said of people this handing out of socks is nothing the homeless don’t need socks they need houses. and claims I gave all to help but the people he interviews during the day remain in their tents at night and while he goes to a motel room that the expense of per-night cost more than this homeless man afforded for a month in food. And the 100k homes campaign has in it’s first year spent more on training advertising and employee expense accounts than it has to house the 12-14 thousand people it has housed, and by the way at the rate they are going financially and success in housing it will take over six years to house one hundred thousand people and at a cost of over 100k per person. so tell me why I should keep my mouth shut about it Oh yea For there sake and not the sake of the homeless, so yea I am a harsh critic Because I find it hard to believe a self educated homeless man is the only one able to figure out the American people are once again being duped by people who have made it an industry and thrived off of the misfortune of others. They all go home at night to there homes in the Santa Monica Hills the Hamptons and many Florida beach towns and they stay at the finest hotels and the people they are helping are still left to perish on the street. And if you do not believe this to be true than look into the personnel assets of the board of directors of any homeless help Organization out there. That is If you are now pissed at more than Just Me.
God bless you one and all my friends and on a personal Note to Mr. Mark Horvath, I do Have Peace with My self and My direction, but I will not let those who have oppressed and prayed on men like myself have it any longer.  and to those who have a right and good heart and want to help men like me don’t let them be your voice and direction any longer think outside the box, you only need look at my life Now as compared to the Day this blog started to see you the right and true hearted ones can help without any PR campaign . It Only takes a little Love.

Saturday, August 13, 2011


Here Is what I believe it is, It is a spirit of Uncaring. Which We all have in our lives as a whole. What we do care about are the things that effect us about the ongoing comfort of our daily lives. If it does not effect us than it Holds no interest to us and if captures our interest it is fleeting. We see others struggle and injustice as pertaining only too them But this Is far removed from the truth, If any man on the face of this planet in any way faces injustice or oppression he does not face it alone, the reason that war continues is because we allow it. everyone says oh wouldn’t it be great if the had a war and no one showed up, when we should say the next time they start a war we are all showing up and we are going to stop these war mongering, corporate interest, and powers that be from using or young men and women as implements of there misguided policies. yes because we truly live in fear and don’t want their guns turned on us we allow them to be turned on others. To allow men and governments to continue to war in your name is to live in apathy.
When Men for small infractions of the law of the land are allowed to be drug into the middle of the street and beaten to death like the young Mr. Kelly Thomas of Fullerton California, and we only react by saying how horrible is this and not as a people rage to the point of  coming together and demanding a now justice for the men responsible simply because they are police. This is apathy
And It will continue in the direction it is going in this world because of our apathy, before I go any further I would like for the sake of clarity give the Definition of apathy given by our dictionary,  Lack of interest or concern, especially regarding matters of general importance or appeal; indifference.
Wow Lack of interest or concern, “especially regarding matters of General importance". that means things that apply to everyone, not just you but all of us we deceive ourselves in many ways so that to us things don’t seem to apply to us all in the above mentioned case of point, Men and women all over the world where outraged that a homeless man could be beaten to death on our streets, and that interest waned in us as a whole. we were able to say ok great they are going to investigate this matter. and for us that is enough, this is apathy. when the reality of it is we as A whole should have showed up on the steps of the Fullerton police dept. and said enough of your criminal tactics of oppression. If you do not deliver these oppressors up too us to be imprisoned we will move all of you out of this building by force. we do not because Yes Apathy.
As A Christian I believe in turning the other cheek, I believe we must suffer much in our lives and not resort to any form of violence as pertaining to ourselves. I also believe that even too the point of death we must be willing to sacrifice of ourselves for others. In matters of Humanity this being Oppression, injustice, Tyranny.
Society as a whole has made great advances in technology and having fuller lives yes. But when pertaining to Humanity we have advanced not at all. The availability of this fullness not being for all but for the few. We are failing as Humanity because of Apathy. I Myself see things differently Maybe because Of my status in life I am on the fringe of society one of as many would call the dregs of. I am homeless and live with no desire too be a part of a failing system in which some are valued more than others, where Men are judged merely by their intrinsic value. If you have a 2 car garage and a 100k home you are worth more than A man that has only a tent and a fire to cook on, we place value on men because of there possessions and not there moral integrity or their honor. Idealist are never valued as men or women who should be admired and idolized we rather idolize men and women whom have obtained great wealth with little effort.
Explaining Why a dairy farmer cant afford new boots and a baseball player makes millions a year? Hmmm
It is far easier for a child to get a scholarship for shooting a good jump shot than his academic achievement, technology is funded in the direction it is for comfort and entertainment rather than social stability as a whole.  As long as we can Keep people comfortable to a acceptable degree daily and they have a certain degree of this comfort they will remain Apathetic!  But at what point do we say stop this madness, we don’t because truly most of the madness doesn’t pertain too us and until it does we stand idly by watching, and saying thank God that could never happen to me.
I am sorry for this post, but I it stems from a great sadness, in that I have for Most of my life been apathetic. Please forgive me all of you whom I failed as my fellow man your oppression and tyranny are a direct result of my actions.

Thursday, August 11, 2011

I was truly Born

First as many know I recently turned 50 I have been told by many who reached this milestone before me that That is what it was was a milestone, I missed it I guess because for Me it was a day as any other, most uneventful.
For that I am Both Glad and Blessed, That is how I like most of my days to Go uneventful, I live a very simple Life More than most, and am often confronted with others belief that it is because I have failed to grasp the reality of life, It Is in this belief that I differ from most men. Because I truly believe that each man Must live His Life as It is befitting To Him and not others.
You see Most men would look at my life and by the date of my birth believe Me to be 50 yrs. of age and in the physical sense I am. I however see my life as different I see my life beginning in November of 1993, You see I went through the windshield of a ford thunderbird in November of that year and in that I meet my demise I however Cried Out too God that He might spare Me because I was not yet ready, And In His Infinite wisdom Mercy and grace He spared Me. By No action of my own other than the crying out and desiring for More in my life than I had at that moment. It was at That moment I was truly Born, from Darkness into Light, since that time In all honesty I can not say that there has not been struggle, Struggle I face daily But that being Of myself and the ways of this world and not of the spirit of who I am and who I was created too be. I now have being reborn am blessed with the knowledge that anything that I might have in this world is nothing compared to the Grace and mercy Granted me on that day. I am alive Only because of God the creator.
I hearing others plea for my life and feeling the desire they have for me to be so much more am not deterred from the fact that this day as any other I am right where He wants me to be, I am  Ben El’ohim ( A son Of God ) Not Begotten But Never forgotten. So while there are many and trust in that there are many who see my life as meaningless and lacking, I will continue too give praise to Him who gives Me peace and purpose while I can not see Gods plan for Me I do know His promise, in the book of Thessalonica God promised Me “ I know the thoughts I think towards you, Saith the Lord, Thoughts of peace and not of Evil to give unto you an expected end”  KJV.
So you see for Me I do not see the expected end But I do know one who does, and In this I find both peace and Strength. I arise each and everyday as If it is the day of my birth because I know That There is one that goes before me and prepares for me my path. I have nothing in this material world this life we live but I am far richer than many can comprehend. I treasure nothing in this world, yet I have great treasure in the next, In this Life I have but one goal to Love others, and too help others to understand The love of God. Because it is what we are. We are the Image of God and God Is love and truth, and In Him there is No guile.
So while I cry out often It is against the injustice of this world, It is not of my selfish desire for things to be better for me, Because I count it all as dung, for others to be blessed and to be sheltered and fed, and clothed. I know In the End It is only God That can provide these things. So I in my crying out will cry that others find the peace I found only in Him. while your governments and your leaders and all of the world cry out we can do this and make this a better place. And the truth is only Love can make this better and That true Love is only found in God, So I pray That Men In all of their efforts Find the true Love of God, And find that there we can rest together, There we are all the same.
May God Bless and keep you one and all, Until the glory of his coming when then and only then we will find what we might be.

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Revolution Of Humanity That Is to say Us ALL

The Next Great Revolution AS I See It, Will be one of necessity for all one where people are forced By a Failing economy, and a realization that we are born too care for each other or perish. I See this not out of some great desire too be taken care of but too see those who are not taken care of the elderly the helpless children the infirmed disabled and the Mentally unstable which some might think Me too Be But I have set Myself In a Different Framework And refuse too be removed which greatly contributes too that belief held by so many.
Because, I see A world we could live in one where men are not judged by what they have or have accomplished but rather are judged by what Impact there lives have made on others, in how they with their infinite ability have helped others. Did they do the right thing many would say I never Did also and I can not say decisions in my past have always been well made Or well Planned out. So the Impact I have made on others lives has oft sucked Having said that I will make My point of Faith, God has Lead Me too where I am An the Limited Knowledge I have today.
So, As I see It with Us all as Americans Have long suffered in silence The inability of our leaders too see the Big picture where there Might be a future of sustainability in the lives of us as a whole. Not Just as Americans But as Humans on this planet as it is with the rest of the world and their leaders, because I do not care If you are American, South American, Central American, African, Asian, European, Christian Muslim Buddhist, existentialist, Aboriginal to any continent or descendants, of those outcast from some continent, you have in a great percentage of your people or ours experienced oppression, tyranny and the forever looming threat of war, in your lives. and people are tired all over the world chasing the money is not working and there are far greater riches, That in the chase we still struggle for daily. we have run a great race but we have pushed ourselves as a whole to the point of collapse and the race is lost to all .
I living as I have on the fringe of society have the blessing of nothing but the Love I get from others and that I am able to share, and with that the freedom of knowing, it is plenty, And one day people really will realize they need to quit working towards Goals independent of others, and demand better for those less fortunate, by restructuring there priorities, and living lives where giving is far more grand than receiving.
Then and only then will men have peace until then we must, fight tooth and nail those who hold hostage freedom and bind prosperity too the few rather than the all of mankind. But too fight them you must start Following your heart and not the Hearts darkened by greed  We are going too have one or the other soon enough a one world Governance, or a one world Humanity it is for us to chose by How we live our lives and what we deem as important is it you and your stuff, or you and your fellow man if it indeed is you and your stuff, in a perfect world you will be the outcast and the one on the fringe, not I. 
And On a Personal note to Those Inmates Running this asylum, You have been warned revolution is coming, WE PEOPLE ALL AROUND THIS THE THIRD ROCK FROM THE SUN THOSE MORE HUMAN THAN THOSE OF YOU!!! are soon going to stop chasing this illusive dream you present say Screw you and just start Loving each other.